This is me now

This is me now.

This is not who I was. This is not who i may be tomorrow, but this is me now.

This is what I have to work with. I do not have tomorrow. I do not have yesterday. I have only myself, now, to work with, and this is me now.

I am larger than I would like. I am plainer in my mind than I am in others eyes. I see myself as less than when I am, in fact, more.

I am a mother of a brilliant boy. I am wife of an amazing husband. I am a hard worker, and I am safe. I have clean clothing, a warm bed, and food in my pantry. I do not need to worry because this is me now.

I am imperfect, flawed, and human. This is me now. I am a child of the goddess, though I sometimes forget. This is me now.

This is my mantra, newly discovered. This is the thing i tell myself when i feel trapped by the past, or pressured by the uncertaity of the future. It helps, in all honesty. It allows me to focus on the truth of my life, which is not terrible or broken or bad. i actually have a good life, and this helps me remember that.